Rainy Monday

Ketaatan iman…
Begitu kata Romo di misa Hari Raya Kristus Raja Sabtu sore yang lalu.
Sambil terkantuk-kantuk karena fisik yang agak capek setelah seharian aktivitas, suara romo yang tenang dan adem masuk ke telinga gue dan somehow bikin gue tergugah buat merhatiin lebih cermat.
Akal budi saja tidak akan cukup…
Kenapa?
Semua manusia punya akal budi dan pengetahuan. Akal budi membuat manusia bertengkar dan berselisih, demi mempertahankan kebenaran masing-masing, yang seringkali memang sama-sama benar.
Aha! So true romo… kata gue dalam hati…
Ketaatan iman. Kata-kata itu mulai masuk lebih dalam… into my soul, and my spirit.
Jadi apa maksudnya ketaatan iman?
Agak bergerak lebih jauh dari isi homili romo, gue mau sedikit membagi pendapat gue soal yang satu ini.
Ketaatan iman, ngga begitu aja dateng ke setiap orang beragama. In fact, sepertinya ini bisa ngga ada hubungannya sama agama seseorang.
Ketaatan iman, berasal dari Dia, yang kita panggil Tuhan. The Eternal One. The Supreme Power. Causa Prima. Or whatever others may call Him.
Karena kalau mau ngikutin porsinya otak manusia (yang notabene cuma terpakai 10%), yang muat Cuma pengetahuan. Apa yang bisa diterima sama indera-indera kita, yang sudah ada, dan tinggal kita kenali lebih detil, kita pilah dan kita golongkan. Terbatas sama hal-hal yang sudah ada. Existing. Sedikit lebih maju dari pengetahuan, ada imajinasi, yang sebenarnya juga berakar dari pengetahuan. Melalui apa yang sudah kita kenal dan kita alami, kita mix and match lah hal-hal itu, jadi sesuatu yang mungkin belum ada saat ini. But those are all within our brain’s capacity. Perceive, create and re-create.
Nah, kalau bicara soal iman, ini artinya kita perlu bergerak lebih jauh dari otak kita. Iman bukan made in this world. Iman, ngga ada di otak manusia. Hm… atau mungkin ada, somewhere di 90% area yang selama ini belum pernah terpakai.
Pernah merasa yakin kalau orang itu adalah orang yang akan jadi pasangan hidup kita, regardless of all the terms and condition yang ngga terpenuhi?
Pernah merasa yakin kalau pilihan karir kita sepertinya harus belok ke arah yang kurang masuk akal?
Pernah merasa setengah mati pingin banget melakukan sesuatu yang salah tapi ujung-ujungnya tetep stay di tempat yang bener?
Well guys, gue rasa itu lah iman. Tumbuh dari pengetahuan tentang Tuhan dan pekerjaanNya. Diasah sama Roh yang mendampingi kita tanpa kelihatan. Yah, ini bagian tersulitnya memang… ngga keliatan… karena manusia punya atribut alami yang selalu ingin melihat, sebelum mau nerima.
I’ve lived for 38 years now. Udah liat banyak. Udah ngalamin banyak juga. Sekarang dunia lagi gonjang-ganjing karena perubahan begitu banyak, begitu drastis dan menakutkan… Apa yang dulu salah mendadak jadi bener. Dan sebaliknya. Yang dulu Cuma khayalan, sekarang kenyataan.
Panik?
Well… if you’re a mediocre human who believe in your 10% brain capacity only, surely you can’t help but to be panic.
Tapi ada kabar baik buat kamu yang sudah punya pengalaman sama imannya. No worries guys, those robots may replace humans with knowledge. But they can’t replace your wisdom. And they definitely knows nothing about faith and the unseen holy spirit.

Work Is...

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Kalo terlalu sedikit kelaperan.
Kalo ngga ada...
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Probably Heaven

Maybe… this is what happens to the chosen ones in Heaven before they are sent to Earth…
God : (Reading from list while tick marking names, perhaps in alphabetical order. Days have passed with abundant turmoil in the assignment fields. Piles of reports are floating and glistening around Him. He exhales deeply, clear His throat and with His thundering and fearful voice He calls the name.)
  Felicity!
A soul flies in. A white light flickers above her head, and all over her skin. She looks restless, excited, curious…
Felicity : Aye, My Lord! How can I be at your service?
God : (Gives a close look to Felicity from behind a pair of glasses that ease His eyes to read. Silent for a moment, then He snaps His fingers to summon a humongous book, with gold ink carved on its seemingly heavy cover.)
  This is your handbook for your assignment. And this, (snaps His fingers one more time to summon a white envelope, sealed with the sign of the cross.) is the details of your assignment.
Felicity : (Receives the two items, which are indeed heavy, with a gasp. She waits for God to say more, expecting some complicated instructions to be jotted down. But instead, God steps backward, reached for His chair and fetch the pen to tick mark the list, ready for another assignee…
Felicity : ehem… hm…?
God : Yes? You have a problem finding the way out?
Felicity : (Confused and feels disoriented) Pardon me Sir… but… in case You haven’t noticed, I haven’t been given any trainings for this assignment. I believe this is a very serious and tough one. That’s what folks say.. So, at least You can give me some guidance or some sorts before I go.
God : (Puts away the list and the pen for a while. Once more, He looks Felicity closely, this time with arms folded).  I have assigned another soul to be your guidance there.
Felicity : Is that so? And… Are You gonna introduce me to that person?
God : No (without blinking). Not now.
Felicity : But, this is… a bit overwhelming actually Sir… I mean, You do want me to succeed the assignment, right?
God : Of course. You go and accomplish your assignment. After that, you will be taken home here, and get all your rewards from Me, Myself. And remember not to breach any of the procedures and regulations written in that book. Otherwise, you will fail the assignment. And, if that happens, sadly, I can not let you stay here anymore.
After saying the last sentence, He looks mournful, as if the statement has come into reality. Felicity wonders how many have failed the assignment before her? Suddenly she has panic attack, looking at the humongous book.
Felicity : But sir… seriously? I don’t have even the tiniest idea about the procedures in this book! (Her voice trembles as if she’s going to cry at anytime).
God : (Gives a magical calming look to Felicity). I will equip you with everything you need… Just don’t break the rules, ask for anything that you need for the assignment. I will give it to you. Trust me.
Felicity : (Getting a lot calmer). I see… (Reaches her communication gadget). So, what’s your number?
God : (Clears His throat and sighs almost unnoticeably). Hm, there might be a bit of a problem with the communication line between here and your assignment location. Due to many interference and the extreme distance. You might not be able to hear my voice, at least not clearly. But no worry, I can always hear yours. So, say and ask anything you want, to Me.
With hesitation, finally Felicity left the chamber where God drowns Himself days and nights in His works.
Before the door closes behind her, she feels an urge to see God one more time. So she turns around to meet God’s loving face staring at her. He smiles and says, “Always remember who you are, my child. And always believe in Me.”