Before February Ends

So before February ends...
Thank God for the sunset
It’s been a hot long day

Just finished a book
With a red cover
About a hero
Who fell in love with another hero
About the hearts that long for peace
Guess they just lived in a wrong place
At the wrong time...

I was breathless
While reading the last sentence
Sure will leave a mark...

Went upstairs and downstairs
Killing the time...
Fried some vegies in sweat
Walked around
‘Till it was dawn
And the sun rested to the other half of the earth

My Beloved Blank Pages

Oh how I miss my blank pages
And the story my mind creates
Out of scratch

Where I can escape
To any places I wanna go
Become any one
I wanna be

I just want more...
To feel all scenes intertwine
inside my brain cells
Down to my fingers
Up to the blank pages
That I miss so much...

Soul Mate

If only I could make u understand
My journey of finding the right love
You see…
It is not uncomplicated

I was searching and searching
Met the wrong ones every now and then
Fell down under and shed the bitterest tears

But you are right
What doesn’t kill you will make you stronger

My broken heart had taught me precious lessons
And so I learned
That there are the ones we love
But don’t love us at all in return
And there are those who are fond of us
But don’t love us with their soul

That’s why I kept looking
For the truest one
The one that will not be washed away by rain
Nor by the wind
The one that is safe for my heart
And whose loyalty is not questionable
Therefore I can concentrate
In living my life with the Lord
For I know for sure its presence will remain until the end

I’ve paid a high price for what it’s worth.

So it’s not the casual one dear…
‘Coz love in the surface will be worn out once the wave comes
For it possess no strong roots
Seek for the simplest one
Sense it with your spirit
And listen to its silent call when it finds you.

Jealousy

Don’t miss me ‘coz I don’t miss you
Don’t recall me ‘coz I’m doing great forgetting you
Don’t expect me to write to you ‘coz I don’t wanna waste my time
Don’t count my opinions ‘coz I don’t care if you don’t care
Don’t ask me why ‘coz I don’t know the answer
Don’t feel bad for my disagreement ‘coz I’m not the fate maker
You’ve made your decision
Now live it
And leave me with my own discontentment
I’m not like the rest
Nor like the one who share the same blood with me
So don’t try to understand me
‘Coz there are times when I also struggle to understand myself

Lamunan Hujan

It’s been rainin’ all day.
I like it when it rains
The smell of the soil
The water drips
And the grey clouds above my head
Everything seems moving in slow motion

I love the cool weather when it rains
Cool but warm enough not to shiver
The tropical friendly weather…

I sigh as I pass the old street from yesteryear
It remains unchanged
And I recall the passing years behind me
Each fine memory I keep
With every simple thing
A day can contain

Life’s been good
And time have been helping a lot
Healing the wounds
Teaching me to let go
Of those that must go
Like the rain water
That washes all the heat
The ashes
And the dust
Away…

When I'm a Parent

When I’m a parent, Lord
Do remind me
To love my children unconditionally
Like You have loved me
And never count the hardships
I go through in raising them
For I have the responsibility
To show them that it is Your generous blessings
That have brought them to where they are
Safely and soundly, through me
Lead me, Lord
So I can lead them
To be leaders
To conquer the world
But not before they conquer their greatest enemies
Which are them selves…
Teach me to let go
When it’s time for them to go
‘Cause being the children of the Father
They must answer His calling

And finally, let me be satisfied
By knowing that I have raised them
As people who fear You
Love You
And serve You
With all their hearts and souls

F for Felis

Hey, check this out.
This is just a cool coincidence.
Egyptian cats in Latin is Felis sylvestris catus,
(Pay attention to the ‘Felis’)
Ancient Egypt has always been my fancy since I knew history
And guess what?
Way apart from my Egptian enthusiast side
My baptist name is Felisitas
Nope, I absolutely wasn’t thinkin’ about the cat when choosing the name
The sound of the ‘F’ tickled me, and the patron saint is so heavenly blessed
Meaning is ‘the blissful one’
Is this somekind of a sign?
Well, I’d love to think it is
The good one.

Cheers!

Nite Nite

Aaaa... it's 11.02 already!!
Huhuhuhu... gue msh blom ngantuk
Still wanna write write write
Anything I can write
Some freaky mails to a stranger on the other part of the globe (ha ha!)
My blog, the beautiful sanctuary that saves my ass big time from insanity
My short stories, the project I'm dying to accomplish

And the mood is so good tonight, with the nicest tunes and melodies from my personal collection.

But it's eleven already, and minutes are ticking...
And my back is killing me.
And can u believe it? It’s actually 31 degrees Celsius out there tonight (just an info)

Oh well..
A cup of coffee tomorrow morning is for certain then.

One Two Three

One...
It’s me. Walking the marble floor
With a leather bag and a pair of black, polished shoes
Chit chating about the weather

Two...
That’s me. Aligning the plate,
the spoon and the fork
Cutting the apple into pieces
Washing my clothes

Three...
Is it me?
Someone pushed the button
So it’s probably me,
Creeping under the darkness
And taste my bitter lips
Lookin for a hostage
To be condemned